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[housewolf]

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[housewolf]

... Thinking about someone else, Luca?

[notaccurate]

[He smiles.]

Not exactly, no. More about what's happened here and what I've learned from it.

[housewolf]

Want to share your findings with me?

[notaccurate]

[Well. Omi is a friend, so.]

Commitment is terrifying and I don't think I like it.

[Commitment to who, exactly?]

[housewolf]

To who, exactly?

[A little pause-]

I haven't really dated anybody in years.

[notaccurate]

To nobody, really. Just the general thought of committing to one person is not something that is appeasing.

[What a liar.]

After all, that's how hearts are broken. If you put all of your hope and faith into one person and that person leaves, or dies, or falls out of love with you, what then? It's not worth it in my book.

[What a huge liar.]

[housewolf]

It's terrifying in some ways, isn't it? To let somebody have that much of yourself.

Relationships aren't for everyone, but, at least for me, they're worth it.

[notaccurate]

If it works for you, then it works for you. But it's not for me. And it never will be.

[If it's not for him then why does he keep thinking about it? These are questions Luca can't answer.]

[housewolf]

... Have you been thinking about it for a while?

[notaccurate]

No!

[Yes.]

Why would I be thinking about it at all if it's not for me? I'm fine on my own, I don't need to go crying to him about feelings or anything. Feelings that don't exist anyway!

['him'.]

[housewolf]

[You okay there, buddy? Because that sure sounds like an outburst.]

It sounds like you're working through some stuff.

[notaccurate]

[He is not okay at all.]

Well I just recently found out you can marry another man in some worlds, my entire life has been turned upside-down.

[housewolf]

Some countries where I'm from will allow that too.

It's a lot to take in, huh?

[notaccurate]

You know, in my world, they don't ever talk about love when it comes to two men. Anything between men is purely physical. You can go have fun at a club or in a hotel room so long as you're being discreet, but you're expected to marry a woman and have a family as well. As long as you present the front of being an upstanding gentleman, you can keep those skeletons in your closet.

[housewolf]

[They sure are talking about feelings now. He pulls back and takes a seat next to Luca. Sounds like this is going to take a little while.]

That's the situation you were in at home, right?

[notaccurate]

[I totally forgot a massage was going on here. Whoops.]

It is, yes.

...my apologies. I asked you here, and now I'm dumping all of this on you.

[housewolf]

[Sometimes... you just need to deal with feelings.]

There's not much I can help with, when it comes to this kind of thing. But I can always listen.

[notaccurate]

You are quite good at that, yes. But sometimes I think my thoughts are better off staying in my head. Thoughts unspoken can't become reality, right?

[If he doesn't admit to growing a feeling, then it won't be real.]

[housewolf]

What? I'm pretty sure that's not how it works.

[notaccurate]

No? What about "Ignore it and you will eventually forget about it"?

[housewolf]

I don't forget about things.

[notaccurate]

But have you ever tried to?

[housewolf]

Hmm... I haven't. It's not a skill I've picked up.

[notaccurate]

Well I suggest you do, it's very handy in avoiding the unfortunate things in life.

[Like growing a feeling for someone.]

[housewolf]

I'll take life- the afterlife, as it comes.